Bad@blog

Seeing as this is my first blog in many moons.. it would seem,,, I am not very good at blogging. Feels very in line with the fact that I think my main struggles in life right now largely boil down to consistency™️ and/or routine.

And my musing is: perhaps these struggles would not be quite so intense if I had had the chance to build a fully realized knowledge of Time as a concrete Thing [n accordingly would be able to establish myself firmly within My Existence via ritual/routines n would achieve some self-actualization and/or create meaning amidst mundanity and/or mbkesjlgmsjdmsbejw] ie if a sprinkling of my formative adult years had not coincided with a global pandemonium in which time became nebulous and ever-negotiable and sans-guarantees! Haha! Haha! bc truly. when i pause n think of the psychological impact that this phenomenon of constant pushing back of/canceling of events (more common earlier in the pandemic ofc :///) + the sense of instability re:Time arising from the fact that any plan for the expected future can’t entirely be guaranteed & might necessarily be wholly rerouted bc of a Covid exposure/positive test ,,,,, must be having on us,, it’s wild! HENCE. In conclusion. To sum up. As u can see. Time as it was understood Before feels fake n shoddily constructed now.

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Anyway. ✌️😗

Gonna try to be better ab blogz bc here’s to building the impulse of routine! Time is real! Time is real!!!!!