hello. why.

hiiiiiiiiiii. long time no talk. cw this is gonna be a deeply angsty blog.

on this here lovely afternoon before shabbat, i am going to be shouting into the void [the internet] to myself about one simple lil question and that question is what is the point!!! not to sound melodramatic at all of course! haha! as a self-proclaimed Tortured Soul, i think about this question often and had an existential crisis on the bus one time (someone please form a band w this title!) in which i came to this conclusion – but please do let me know your thoughts. PLS.

it was the week that literal HAVOC was being wreaked on the planet earth i.e. there was a tornado in NJ and like 3 hurricanes on the east coast and perpetual wildfires on the west coast and I read this thing on twitter that basically said that this week of extreme weather indicated that the US government’s infrastructure is very much unprepared to handle extreme weather. (???). cool! and extreme weather is what we are HEADED for for however long until the earth legitimately explodes and we all d*e! and knowing all this here we all are waking up each day living our silly little lives going to our silly little 9-5 jobs to ““make money”” so we can “““live””” even though the earth is fully dying lol??? so.

yes. angst. i warned you. there’s a (somewhat) happy ending i promise.

i sat there, absolutely swimmmmmmming in the goop of this existential crisis, really thinking what! is! the! point! then! and then i realized/decided: it’s just not my business to know that! to know what the point is or if there even IS a point. so for however long I have to exist i am simply! going! to! make! /partake! in! art! and that is all.

xoxoxoxo